I haven't been focused on much of anything lately,well,except focused on my disappointments.....When I started this blog I was commited to contentment ...(so I thought)...then we got offered something wonderful! A Job relo with full benefits including fully paid real estate fees.Yay!This was God's answer to my predicament...freedom to be happy i.e.Lots of friends easy to be around(I do have some very few dear friends here),no more lonely nights listening to crickets pondering why one even tries because it seems like too much effort,awkwardness...blah,blah,blaaaaeeehhh!So I put in much work and prepping,and worrying all while hoping.Hoping for life to be made different,by a move(yes I know,"silly girl",but just hang in there with me!)I just wanted something different for my family(still do).Then two weeks later..........SMACK!!! Hit hard with disappointment.(ouchie I'm still sore).Needless to explain everything,I'm now not moving.
Even though its still tender,I'm seeing something that looks like the truth....and the truth is... moving won't solve my problems.I mean, sure,it would make some things easier,but in the long run,where ever I go,there I am.But more importantly,where ever I go,there is God. And in this I am free to be content.This life is looking alot different than I thought,so excuse me while I regain my vision and stop seeing stars.
(I've been seeing other blogs posting in the same topic,so I felt nudged to share)
I find this more amusing than my kids do
6 years ago
